Dreamed 2017/1/7 by Wayan
I'm in a strange house-castle-indoor forest! Stone walls, stairs, arches like a castle, but trees growing from cracks in the old stone. Cobwebs and brush. Dark, dirty.
I set out to clean it. Kids watch me. Gossip, but don't help or hinder. Like cleaning's a spectator sport. I don't see why. Gotta be dull.
One girl's cute--huge eyes and black bangs like a mini-Cleopatra. Oh! Cleo from those Monster High kids' movies. I know she's centuries older than she seems, but she looks underage. So I guiltily suppress my attraction to her, and clean on!
A few minutes later, though, I take a break. Leave this muddy indoor wood. Hike up a grassy hill on a path alongside a chainlink fence. At the top, a knot of teens lean on posts by a gap in the fence. Two BEAUTIFUL girls are talking in low voices about... nuclear physics?! Some science project they planned that they hope will lead to a real, profitable invention.
Suddenly I'm shocked to realize I have absolutely no sexual feeling for these girls, and they're as gorgeous and smart as I'll ever find.
Either I firmly believe NO girl I'd like would EVER like me and there's no point in torturing myself... or this year's recurring illness has insidiously drained all sexuality--without my noticing.
How long's it been since I had ANY sexual feelings? Months?
And then I wake--with an erection! Proving it's not medical.
Leaving just one hypothesis: suppression. More than that: delusion. Lying to myself.
NOTES IN THE MORNING
So... I fused that Cleo doll (and the torso & legs of a second doll with a blah face) into a sexy but precocious centaurette.
Should I feel guilty? When the Monster High movies are all about tarting up and dumbing down already? Grrr. Well, not the recent "origin" movie where they BUILD their own high school; but in earlier ones, like "New Ghoul at School" and "Boo York", they're teeth-grindingly conformist--just wanna fit in. Don't these girls have ANY intellectual, creative or spiritual interests? Sheesh.
I'm being a bit unfair. In Boo York, Luna, Kitty Noir and Pharaoh the rapper do care for their art--it's just that their music's mediocre and their characters predictable.
Anyway, speaking sculpturally, the Monster High dolls are so distorted and flimsy they can't even stand on their own. But my centaur-sex-kitten version Cleo can: independence, nyah nyah nyah!
So this is my apology to dream-Cleo for snubbing her. And to a zillion more women I suspect I've lied to over the years, by looking away, pretending I wasn't attracted--impressed! When I was. As bad as unwanted attention, and more dishonest.
I've learned the price of denial: Cleo's revenge.
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