Out of the Closet!
Dreams on first acknowledging what really turns you on--and facing the reactions.
But some of these dreams are about admitting other faces you feel you have to hide. Brains. Visions. Money. ESP. Dreams. Anything they'll mock you for--or want a piece of.
And a few of these dreams are about real closets--and what, like Lucy in The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe, we find therein.
RELATED TOPICS: sexual awakening, puberty, first love - masturbation - truth and lies - lesbians - gay men - dream puns - bias, including homophobia - wedding dreams - See also the full INDEX OF SUBJECTS.
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|ANNIE, GET YOUR GOWN!: by Wayan; 1988/9/14, a comic dream.
I'm Annie Oakley, sharpshooter, facing something scarier than gunmen: a formal ball introducing me to my new husband's family--Austrian aristocracy! What's an American gal to do?
|ARCH: by Wayan; dreamed 1998/8/10, painted 1999, acrylic on wood.
I dreamed that as a kid I found two girls making love in the bushes, awakening my own sexual orientation. Later, I saw the bigger picture, which wasn't about sex at all...
|AT THE BISEXUAL BALL: by Wayan; 1997/6/21, a dreamtale.
How I found out what I really wanted at the bisexual ball. Really, I'm not disappointed...
CAUTION: OH COME ON, READ THE TITLE
|AWAKENING HURTS: by Wayan; 1993/7/4, a dreamtale.
An old friend's awakening from anorexic asexuality. Puberty at 30? And wait a minute... is she me?
|AYRES: by Wayan; alarming nondream discovery 2006/5/4, and subsequent revelations
The therapist my parents forced me to see as a kid has been indicted on multiple counts of molesting clients. No surprise--he was creepy. I played an evasive waiting game for three miserable years under his leering scrutiny. So... can avoiding a molester still traumatize? Oh yes...
CAUTION: CHILD NEGLECT & ABUSE
|BASTARD UNICORN: by Wayan; 2012/6/28, a dream about ambition
Since I'm half-unicorn, my ambition drives me to share power and help the whole herd--that's how unicorns rise. But among human politicians...
|BIRD, CAT, TREASURE: by Anna Kingsford; 1877/8/3, two warning dreams in one night
Should Anna quit hiding her psychic dreams? She dreams a cat eats her bird, and burglars loot an unprotected house. Maybe not...
|BIRD-SENSE: by Wayan; 2013/7/20; a dreampoem on denied senses, provoked by an improvised Shakespearean play.
I dream I have sixth and seventh senses--and wake to realize I do! Just denied them, explained them away...
CAUTION: SHAKESPEAREAN HEFT
|BITTER TRANSFORMATIONS: by Selena; 2017/10/18, a diagnostic gender identity dream
I finally admit who I am, and the truth is bitter...
CAUTION: GENDER DYSPHORIA, MENTION OF COPROPHAGY, POSSIBLE SITCOM SPOILER
|BLUEBEARD DRAG: by Wayan; 2008/9/5, a creepy dream-poem, Dreamverse #22
On the waterfront, I meet a seductive girl. Well, guy. Well, serial killer. Um, I think I'll leave now...
CAUTION: HOMOPHOBIA OR SURVIVAL INSTINCT?
|BRAID OF SILENCE: by Wayan; 1989/1/24, a brief dream-poem
We're slaves on the moon. But we're slowly stretching our freedom in the shadows, undoing the Braid of...
|CHAPERONE AND REBEL: by Wayan; 1998/5/18, a flirtatious dreamtale.
A girl with a magic swimsuit flashes me, as her Iranian fundamentalist aunt glares from beyond the veil...
CAUTION: NUDITY? OR ILLUSION?
|"CLIT!": by "D'Jeanna"; 2009/9/11, a breakthrough dream after coming out
The day after my mom outed me to my dad, I dream a great storm has passed through and everything's just glowing...
|COLT TABOOS: by Wayan; 1972/3/27, a puberty dream.
A castle with horse statues in the moat. Only... one of them is alive! He's my lover...
CAUTION: EVERY SEX TABOO YOU CAN THINK OF
|DANCING WITH EMILY BRONTE: by Alice Sheldon/James Tiptree; 1943?, a lesbian literary love-dream
Alli/Tip could only imagine loving the strange, intense, and unavailable--and Bronte was all three..
|THE DOCTOR'S ADVICE: by Wayan; 2011/5/23, a tricky double-diagnostic dream that changed my life.
I dream my doctor tells me, with no exam or tests, that hidden desires are sickening me. But I'm skeptical--suspect an infection. Isn't that dream advice too?
Awake, I test both hypotheses--repression and infection. Antibiotics work! I still struggle to speak my desires--but at least it's from a base of health not illness.
|DRAGON-JEWEL: by Wayan; 2013/6/27, a 1001 Nights dream-poem
I stumble on a dragon-hoard. Wizards and caliphs hunt me--how to get outa town? A brown coat and a delivery bike...
|THE DREAM POLICE: by Wayan; 1994/4/6, a dream on persecution.
The police confiscate my therapist's copies of my dreams, and try me for obscenity! So why do I help?...
|EDITH KEELER: by Wayan, 1975/10/8, an incubated dream giving multiple answers
I asked my dreams to show me my Shadow--what I deny. It showed me at least FIVE! And in every time-branch, a runaway truck crushed me--the Truck of Ideology. Not that I seemed able to avoid it...
CAUTION: RECURRING DEATHS
|FISHERGIRLS: by Wayan; 2.6M, 42 illus.; 1996/7/15; a sexy dream epic.
I had a spectacular dream one night, that lasted many days in dream-time--a true other life. It wasn't Earth, and we weren't human.
I was a teenage lemur, sailing with two friends into unknown waters--a rite of passage. I woke on deck deep in the night, my friends curled around me, and realized I didn't WANT to pass the test, be declared a grown woman, marry and have pups. I loved my girl friends. In a world lacking the very word, I was groping toward queerdom. Sailing into unknown waters! "Here be dragons," the old maps say. And they were right...
If 2600K is too big to load, try it in parts: 1: HOME, 650K, 2: VOYAGE, 1200K, 3: BACK 750K.
CAUTION: NUDITY, SEX, QUEER TEEN ANGST, ANTI-FUNDAMENTALISM
|FISHERGIRL IN WATERCOLOR; OVAL: by Wayan; 1996, watercolor of a 1996/7/15 dream scene.
A watercolor portrait of Leaf and me on our boat in the lost city, from the dream FISHERGIRL...
CAUTION: TRIBAL NUDITY
|FLOWERING:: by Wayan; 1996, pencil digitally tinted; nondream portraits.
Sketches from a San Francisco street music festival where, after a long sleep, I woke up sexually at last...
CAUTION: NYMPHETS, QUEERS, AND OTHER REAL PEOPLE
|FOAM, FURS, DREAMS: by Wayan; 2012-16, a blog + 170 pics; dozens of dreams guide me to sculpt huge furry dream statues.
Dreams urge me to build life-size dream creatures with fur, joints, muscles & bones, then to heal myself by mating with them...
CAUTION: FETISHISM, FURRY NUDITY & SEX
|GRAMPA GOT AIMED: by Wayan; 1987/6/17, a psychic dreamtale.
The girl I love has a family that'll stop at absolutely nothing to destroy us. But I'll fight for love...
CAUTION: SEX; MOLESTATION HISTORY; RAPE
|GREEN DAY DREAM: by Cristy C. Road; early 1995. A recurring dream.
Green Day singer Billie Joe hocked a lugie on me in concert. I felt blessed...
|HELL IS HEAVEN!: by John Keats; 1819, a happy scandalous dream
I dreamt I was in the outermost circle of Dante's Hell, among condemned lovers, floating forever, in love, in bliss...
|HER FINAL EXAM: by Wayan; 2015/9/8, a dream of a goddess in hiding--and why
During our final exam, second sight tells me our dance teacher's really a Greek goddess in disguise. But she has her own final exam to face...
|HIGHER LEVEL: by Wayan; 2011/12/13, an absurd transcendent dream
I paddle through the grim streets of Karachi on my belly, on a skateboard, with flipper-hands. But I reach the border to a Higher Realm...
|HOLY ZEN MONK: by Wayan; 1978/4/24, a dream of suicide as political protest
I'm a Zen monk riddled with holes from a weird disease the government denies is real. So as a protest, I stand naked atop a wall and let the air-sharks take me...
CAUTION: SURREAL SUICIDE
|IN WOMEN'S PRISON: by Wayan; 1994/7/23, a dream of faith.
A woman in prison loves her counselor, but she's a barely literate hooker--she knows he won't love her back...
|INVOKE THE ANIMAL POWERS (or was it PROVOKE?): by Wayan; 2008/9/9, a dream-poem, Dreamverse #24
A children's performance of "Where the Wild Things Are" turns into a riot-orgy. Why do I think it's all about politics?
CAUTION: WILD THING ORGY
|THE LESSON: by W.H. Auden; 1942, a poem on three linked nightmares
I'm told "Your lives are not in order." The golden crown's too heavy. I win my lover's hand--only the hand. What are my dreams accusing me of?
CAUTION: SEVERED HAND, SUBTLE GUILT
|MY MOTHER'S CLOSET: by Rachel Hadas, c. 2000; a dream-poem provoking a 2008/9/16 dream by Chris Wayan
I was in my mother's closet, trying on her outfits, and trapped in Hamlet, too...
|OUT OF THE IQ CLOSET: by Wayan; 2008/5/7, a dream-outburst on the social minefield the gifted face
I'm silent in class; let our new, inexperienced teacher fumble. At last I'm forced to answer, and reveal I'm ahead of her. She doesn't take it well...
CAUTION: UNCOMFORTABLE SOCIAL DILEMMAS
|PARVATI SAWS THE WALL: by Wayan; 2013/6/26, a dream-poem about a kook
A martial-arts student won't fight the teacher she loves--not even for her final exam. Instead she gets a rotary saw and...
|PHOTOS LURE SOULS: by Wayan; 2016/3/12, dream of summoning spirits
I'm photographing lifesize furry statues. How explicit, how sexy? If I get shots they like, souls will be lured to enter their bodies and bring them alive...
CAUTION: NUDE CREATURES
|SEVEN SQUARED: by Wayan; 1994/2/18, a dream about the IQ closet.
In our wizard-war, I've hidden my nature. At last I come out; but I can't tell the whole truth...
|SHHHH!: by Wayan; 1981, daydream in ink.
A sudden image of a woman whose other lips not only talked, they wouldn't shut up. Worse yet, they...
|THE SHOP SPILLED OVER: by AE (George Russell); early 1890s, a telepathic vision
I closed my eyes at work and saw an old man and a red-haired girl in a shop. My workmate was writing a letter home, and I asked...
|SKY AND PRESTER JOHN: by Wayan; 2009/9/30, two short dream poems with sketches; Dreamverse #57
My neurotic sister and I both lust for a girl named Sky; then I flee a gang of popes and lamas and mullahs...
|SUNLIGHT'S THE CURE: by Wayan; 1990/12/29, a dreamtale.
I find the cure for an alien plague, then visit the world it came from, to find it has a curious variant...
CAUTION: SEX CUSTOMS OF THE NEWT PEOPLE! MY COUSIN'S GAY WEDDING!
|TERTIARY INFECTION:by Wayan, 2016/4/28; a therapeutic/advisory dream of a helpful disease
Flying saucers land, and give us weird compulsions. I catch an unusually mild case, a tertiary infection, and find I'm actually better off...
|THIEF OF DREAMS: by Wayan; 1996/11/29, a 22-page comic telling a sexy soul-swappin' dream. (Small screen, slow loading? Text w/pics)
I was a mermaid trying to find Count Coyote's stolen dreams, so I could marry my human girlfriend...
CAUTION: NUDITY, SEX, LESBIAN MARRIAGE, ANTI-FUNDAMENTALISM
|THIRD EYE: by Wayan; 2009/3/25, three diverse dreamlets on the same theme: enlightenment
Three sisters consecutively flash me. But the middle sister has a third eye in there! Clothed, it's blinded. So is she flirting or just enlightening herself?
Then I'm in the near future. Nearly all cars self-drive now. I'm the last driver using my own muscles and mind. But how long can I hold out?
Then a friend projects all the world's wars on a school chalkboard to prove democracies don't fight each other. So if we want peace...
|TRICERATOPS, or, THE GUY WHO SCRIPTS MY DREAMS:by Wayan, 1982/8/24; a dream about dreaming!
Dropped into a horror movie, I get to meet the triceratops-headed monster who scripts all my nightmares. But I might have more control than I think...
|VOR: by Wayan; 1984/3/27, an indescribable dream
Am I King Kong? No, it's a city of midgets! I leave and find I'm gay. Gay bugs come out of the closet, too, storming the fundamentalist flies of Heaven. And then Vor, the purple alien, does something peculiar...
CAUTION: LOOKS DOWN ON HOMOPHOBIC MIDGETS
|THE WHO IN HELL AM I: by Wayan; 1984/1/28, a stubborn dream.
I'm Pete Townshend of the Who, climbing stubbornly out of Hell by noticing what I don't want...
|WORD AND DEED: by Wayan; 1989/8/1, a embarrassing dream fable.
In bed with my sister and Emmanuelle of the sex films, I learn a little something about denial...
CAUTION: SEX, INCEST, INSIGHTS
|XANTHE'S TUNNEL: by Xanthe & Wayan; 1999/6/11, two possibly telepathic dreams
I'm a dyke playing baseball in Golden Gate Park. Some guys harass us and run into a tunnel. I follow, but...
|"YOU'RE SO GAY!": by Wayan; 2013/1/24. A psychic dream of a time-short oracle.
I'm in line to meet a shockingly accurate psychic. But she's running late, so as I frame my question...
CAUTION: I'M NOT GAY BUT I SURE AM QUEER
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